If we were having coffee, I would tell you good morning and thanks for joining me for another lovely weekend chat. Let’s have some iced coffee instead, to stay cool in this hot weather. I would tell you this week has been an “ehh” week at best.
My new co-workers arrived on Monday and it’s been great having them around. The guy is funny and the girl is beginning to feel like a big sister to me, maybe because we are less than a year apart. She’s been very helpful and a quick learner. She is also an enthusiastic cleaner and organizer.
So what is wrong with this week?
The last two days had been hellish and it made me downgrade my rating for the job from likable to maybe likable. But in order for me to tell you about it, we’ll have to go back to two weeks ago, before Mr. CFO went back to China, when it was his last day in Utah. I asked him, “Who will sign xxx account checks?” The company has multiple bank accounts and the authorization for both accounts is different.
“Oh, S(shipping manager) will sign it.” Mr. CFO answered.
“Are you sure?” I asked. “It’s the xxx account.”
“Yes yes,” he replied quickly. Okay, if you say so. I thought.
Between last week and this week, I had S sign a few checks from this account. Then two days ago, on Thursday, S got a phone call from a vendor, saying the check looked forged. What? I was surprised. How can this be?
Mr. COO immediately called Mr. CFO, who’s in China and it was past midnight when he called. It turned out S didn’t have the authorization to sign the checks. The office instantaneously turned into chaos, like a tornado is suddenly swirling above me.
Anxiety began acting up. My hands began to tremble as I struggled to think with multiple voices buzzing in my ears at the same time. Mr. COO began talking very loud, as if he was trying to reach a crowd of people. He kept asking me why I had S sign the checks and I tried to tell him but he kept saying, “No no no…it doesn’t matter.”
Why doesn’t it matter? It’s the truth!
He called Mr. CFO again and from his tone, it seemed like they were blaming me for the mix-up. I have not heard wrong or misunderstood, I swear. And I’m starting to wonder if Mr. CFO heard me or understood my question at all because I asked the question in English, not Chinese.
Does he understand English at all? Because most of the time, his emails were just “fyi” or a single word, “great.”
I am getting this vibe that Mr. COO and possibly Mr. CFO don’t respect the lower-level employees. I mean, of the time I’ve been with this company, I have never saw them let other employees explain before jumping up and pointing fingers.
This was supposed to be my career but instead, it feels meaningless. The office is filled with fear and nervous instead of fun and enthusiasm. Sometimes it feels dull because instead of learning and building my career, I’m just sitting there day after day, doing the same mindless things – recording expenses and filing – and obeying the company’s annoying rules and regulations.
At this point, I will probably stay for a year before looking for another position in, hopefully, a company that involves English-speaking people who have evolved to the 21st Century.